I recently got Cal's 7-PATH course on CD's.  What a great thing to do for yourself.  I specialize in CD's because of my background in Music Business, and all the time I have spent behind a mixing board recording both my stuff and others, and I have made hypnosis CD's for myself.  I don't know why but listening to your own CD's and somebody elses is very different in terms of effectiveness.

I got Cal's (Calvin Banyan) 5-PATH course a year ago and realized imeadiately that this technique is the best.  I must have watched all 10 DVD's 5 times in the past year and still pick up sublties I missed the last time.  The conscious mind can only do so much!  But because of this style of emotional intergration, I thought I'd give 7-PATH a try.

7-PATH is a well thought out program that litterally loads hypnotic suggestions in your mind like a computer software program.  You simply begin to say the phrase that he teaches you and BOOM your deep into hypnosis and focused on the internal interplay of the conscious and subconscious minds.  I can see scenes clearly and begin to understand things about myself that I would have never been able to address consciously.

Now I'd love to hear from others that make their own CD's and get some feedback about the difference between listening to your own work verses listening to someone elses. 

I have spent this winter working on a book.  I have allways wanted to write a book, and because of the circumstances surrounding this winters acvtivities I found both the time and inspiration to do just that. 

I didn't look for a subject to write on, and this may sound a bit odd, but the subject came to me instead of me finding it.  I'm not sure exactly why but the book just started to form on its own as I began to work from a vision I had many years ago at a time of great depression in my life.

The vision goes something like this...

I was sitting on my couch feeeling the emormous weight of depression pressing down on me as my mind raced through years of mishaps and bad luck.  My most recent reason to feel bad, the passing of my beloved sheepdog Arizona, still gripped my heart as I tried to find blame with myself and others instead of just owning up to the fact that it was simply her time to go. With the pain building inside me and the weight of emotion pressing down on me I snapped, having taken all I could, and gave up. I allowed the forces of oppression to overwhelm me, quiting my own reality by placing my face in my hands and staring in to the blackness.

The blackness enveloped me, and as I surrendered to it I remember asking the question "how did it get this way?"  I found myself questioning god and the universe, as I had so many times before, and in the silence and blackness I began to notice a change in the color of the blackness.  I focused on that blackness stairing deeper and deeper into it, and as I chased this color with my closed eyes, it began to turn into a dark blue.  As I continued to watch it the dark blue began to lighten and it seemed to me that the more I focused on it, the lighter the blueness became.  The dark blue had slowly become a deep royal blue, like the color of the evening sky looking straight up as the sun set in the distance and gave way to the darkness of the comming night.  The blue seemed different than looking at a two dimentional color, and I realized that I wasn't seeing it anymore, I had instead become part of it.  I was surrounded by the blueness on all sides, above and below and within, as I began to float in a feeling of total surrender.

I had forgotten that my head was in my hands and I was sitting in my living room on the couch, as the vision of this deep royal blue pulled me to a place I can still see in my mind, but find it difficult to explain.  As I remaind focused on the blue a stark white doorway appeared be for me.  A doorway with no door, and I walked through it. 

The blueness was still there on the other side of the doorway, but once I passed through my attention moved to what I can only describe as a tub, a rectangular shaped clear aparatus that extended into infinity like a set of railroad tracks disapearing into the distance.  This tub appeared to be about three feet high and three feet across, containing a clear liquid that was stagnent and still. 

It was then that I noticed that I was not alone.  Something was with me, like a shadow that I could not see manuvering just out of my vision as if it knew were I was going to look next.  The presents of this being comforted me and promted me to look deeper into the tub without words.  I looked again at the clear fluid and noticed that it contained small spheres like little crystal balls floating or suspended equal distances apart from one anouther.  I looked deeper into them and noticed that something, a visual image of a person was inside the spheres, and then it dawned on me...this is us.

I reached out my hand to touch the sphere nearest to me, but when my finger reached the clear fluid I noticed that it was not a liquid at all, but a gel that was nearly soild. It was giving, pliable, and by touching it I had started a wave that I watched move away from me throughthe tub, and disapearing into the distance.  As the wave made its way into the infinity I had a chance to wonder how far this tub went and how many lives it contained.

I looked away from the tub and back into the blueness.  The other being was no longer present and as I staired into the deepness of the blue I came to understand that it was energy, the source of everything that powered the life force and the experience of reality that was in the tub.  Later I would call this place the room of worlds, but in that moment it was the universe.  This is the real reality, and the tub is the machine that creates the illusion of experience, of reality.  We are in this tub now, powered by the blueness and connected by the gel in a shared awareness of consciousness, never alone, and eternal. 

Then in a moment I was back on my couch with my face in my hands.  The sun peaked through the window, and I got up and walked to the front door still mistified by what had just happened.  I opened the door and looked into the sky, but never again wondered why it is blue. 

I can from time to time feel stuck, or overwhelmed by the course that the universe has decided to ask me to walk.

In moments of undesired emotion, my personal getaway is meditation.  I can allmost allways find relief in the brain circuts that I've built into my mind using meditation.

here's how I did it...

I used my own guided meditations to create an image/emotion relationship that can quickly and easily over ride current emotions/ thought patterns, that are hanging around for far too long.  If I just want to get rid of them I simply use either a guided meditation Like STILL MIND or a music only or sound and music CD, and do what I call "riding the Elephant". In certain guided meditation CD's that I have recorded, and sell on my web site www.meditationcreations.com ,there is a thought pattern developement that takes you out of whatever pattern your in and redirects it by over riding the current pattern with too much imagery.  The constant deluge of images can break the pattern and lead you to more lofty thoughts like,"we are all one", or " what I do effects all things around me".  These are messsages that I have tied into the imagry, and slip into the mind while lisening to the CD's.  If I am listening to music only or sound and music CD's I picture myself riding an Elephant.  I quickly feel the sensation of the slow methodical gate of that large lumbering beast, and picture myself in the jungles of India surrounded by masses of lush green vegitation. How could anyone not love that image (I guess someone could, but why would they?).

try this or something like this to break from emotions that are directing your attention from the reality you really want.  I have become so good at this that I am capable of riding the Elephant any time I want, and It alllways puts a smile on my face and a great feeling in my heart!

Radical Forgiveness Therapy

I recently had the oppertunity to join a small group of people who wanted to undergo "radical forgiveness" therapy.  The group was lead by a friend of mine, Mary Canane who is a LMHC (licenced mental health counselor) and was held in a new retreat facility called "Shimering Pines" in Jupiter Farms FL.

In the radical forgivness process I noticed a great many similarities to Cal Banyans 5 PATH hypnosis process. 

    After a process of drawing, writting down names and coloring on specifically designed pictures, I became aware of a pattern in my life that I wanted to deal with using radical forgiveness releasing processes.  This process was overseen and aided by Mary.    

  The idea was to consciously become aware of feelings and follow those feelings back to a person/relationship and deal with them by bringing them forward.  I found myself beating on a large pillow with a tennis racket until my arms were sapped of all my strength.  I was able to release the pent up energy and inner hostilities from a long held problem relationship and free myself from that negative thought process.  

the specifics of the process are long and detailed, but I can clearly see the similarities between 5PATH and Radical Forgiviness.

If you want to know more about this go to www.RfCoach.net/Mary Canane